自序
壹 缘起
贰 从社教运动谈起
叁 1966 年6 月4 日
肆 对号入座
伍 快活半年
陆 自己跳出来
柒 抄家
捌 在『自绝于人民』的边缘上
玖 千钧一发
拾 劳改的初级阶段
拾壹 大批斗
拾贰 太平庄
拾叁 自己亲手搭起牛棚
拾肆 牛棚生活( 一)
拾伍 牛棚生活( 二)
拾陆 牛棚生活( 三)
拾柒 牛棚转移
拾捌 半解放
拾玖 完全解放
贰拾 余思或反思
贰壹 后记
附录 自传
INTRODUCTION i
PREFACE vii
MY WRITING MOTIVE 2
STARTING FROM THE SOCIALIST EDUCATION MOVEMENT 14
THE FOURTH OF JUNE 1966 22
CHECK THE NUMBER AND SIT IN THE RIGHT SEAT 42
HALF A YEAR OF QUIET 52
STICKING MY NECK OUT 70
HOME RAIDING 92
ON THE EDGE OF “TAKING MY OWN LIFE AGAINST THE PEOPLE” 112
AT THE CRITICAL JUNCTURE 132
THE EARLY PERIOD OF FORCED PHYSICAL LABOR 150
THE GRAND SESSION OF TORTURE 172
THE TAIPING VILLAGE 186
BUILDING THE COW SHED 198
LIVING IN THE COW SHED (PART ONE) 206
LIVING IN THE COW SHED (PART TWO) 232
LIVING IN THE COW SHED (PART THREE) 258
MOVING THE COW SHED 276
PARTIAL LIBERATION 288
COMPLETE LIBERATION 298
ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS 316
AFTERWORD 336
APPENDIX THE AUTOBIOGRAPHY OF JI XIANLIN 340
NOTES 376
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